“Have any of you ever had a religious
experience?” the teacher asked the class.
Confused, the children looked at each
other wondering what she could have meant. Seeing their reaction, the teacher
asked again, “Have any of you ever had a religious experience?”
Again, all she received was blank stares.
So she went on to explain. “Having a
religious experience does not just mean seeing visions or hearing
heavenly voices. We also have a religious experience when we pray, when we
receive Communion or when we feel a
sense of God’s closeness to us.”
So she asked the class again, “Have any of
you ever had a religious experience?” This time every hand shot up.
When we hear the words, “religious
experience” do we think it means only having Mary appear to us or having a
so-called “out of body” experience? Or do we understand, as the teacher tried
to explain to the students, that whenever we approach God with humble faith and
seek Him out with sincerity we have a religious experience? Most especially, do
we understand that whenever we receive a sacrament whether it be Baptism,
Communion or the Sacrament of Penance we are having a real encounter with the
living God?
We have all experienced moments when we
have felt especially close to God, moments when we really felt His presence in
a way that filled us with peace and joy. We did not see a vision or hear a
voice, but we knew in our hearts that God was really there by our side. There
are other times when we knew God was directing us whether by putting an idea
into our minds or bringing new clarity to our thinking. These are also
religious experiences, real encounters with our Heavenly Father.
However, it is natural for us to ask, is
what I am experiencing really God or are they just figments of my imagination?
Is it really God’s voice I am hearing or is it wishful thinking to believe that
I have been in His presence?
Today’s readings can help us to understand
how we can answer those questions. Both Isaiah and Peter have real,
life-changing religious experiences in the first reading and in the gospel.
Though they are very different in terms of the way God appeared to both of
them, they have some similarities that are important for us to understand if we
are to come to a knowledge of God’s real presence in our lives.
First of all, a real encounter with God
produces awe. When Isaiah sees God enthroned in the temple and angels crying
out, his first instinct is to feel ashamed. Saint Peter too when he witnesses
the miraculous catch of fish falls to his knees at the feet of Jesus. They
realize that they are witnessing something that is literally “out of this
world” and it gives them the sense of just how little they are. In the light of
God’s holiness and glory, they feel acutely just how sinful they are.
Saint John of the Cross explained this
phenomenon using the example of a pane of glass. When it is dark outside, a
window looks clear. However, when the sun rises and light streams through the
window, we start to see its imperfections. We see smudges, fingerprints and
dust that are hidden when it is nighttime. Just so, when we start to turn to God,
all our imperfections and sins become clearer to us in the light of His truth
and goodness.
Therefore, any real encounter with God
should give us not only an appreciation for His glory but a sober realization
that we are small and sinful people. So if our religious practises, our
attendance at Mass or our contributions to the parish are filling us with pride
or if they are leading us to judge others who are not appearing to contribute
as much then they are not real encounters with Jesus. On the other hand, if our
prayer is leading us to a new understanding of our weakness, if our reading of
Scripture points out for us where in our lives we need the grace of conversion,
and if a real desire is welling within our hearts to live as Jesus lived, then
we can be sure that it is God’s voice we have heard and His presence we have
felt.
Finally, a real religious experience
should leave us with a sense of mission, with something that we need to do to
serve our Heavenly Father. In the first reading, Isaiah hears God call out from
the throne, “Whom shall I send? Who will go for us?’. Isaiah readily responds,
“Here I am. Send me!” In the gospel, Jesus tells Peter not to be afraid, that
now he would be a fisher of men. The same is true for so many saints down the
ages. Their religious experiences left them with a desire to serve others. When
Saint Francis has the vision of Jesus on the cross, he hears him say, “Go,
rebuild my church.” When Blessed Mother Teresa of Calcutta makes her private
vow to never say no to Jesus, she receives the call to serve the poorest of the
poor.
The same should be true of us. When we
truly experience the presence of God, it makes us want to serve Him. Just as
not every religious experience is as dramatic as the ones Isaiah and Saint
Peter encountered, so every call to serve God is not as radical as those
received by Saint Francis and Blessed Mother Teresa. For most us all, it will
be a simple mission to love others, to pray or to forgive. It may be an idea
that pops into our head about a way we can put our talents to God’s service. Or
it could be a desire to join a parish or diocesan ministry. Whatever it may be,
if it is really our Heavenly Father whom we are experiencing, it will result in
some concrete action.
God is seeking all of us out. He wants us
to be assured of His love and to commit ourselves to living our baptism by
serving others. We need only give Him some quiet time every day so that He can
reveal Himself to us. If in that time we have a deeper sense of His glory, a
humbler opinion of ourselves and a hunger to meet the needs of our neighbors,
we know that we have been touched by Him and can never be the same.